hamdoulilah

and i write and i speak
but might as well do neither sometimes;
and i create my own worlds
just to see them implode sometimes;
and i laugh off silent treatments
until they make me doubt my own existence sometimes;
and i live and i breathe,
but i'm not sure i really do sometimes;
and i miss strong, late night summer winds
that knock the life back into me until i gasp for air sometimes;
and 'hamdoulilah' weighs heavy on my tongue.